general bull shite

I'm sticking my filthy digits back in the blig.
the 4 track is ok. I even recorded on it. the counter got sticky from the coffee spill and that probably made rewind not work. when I was recording, rewind was slow and choppy like it was bogged down with coffee.
I got a new book about reading music and cracked into it today. I think it's good because it has examples in which the reader has to figure out what note letter is represented on the staff or draw the note on the staff based on what letter is given. it shows keyboard diagrams and guitar tab with everything that I've read so far. I was matching it up to guitar today, but plan to match keyboard sometime in the future. if I do end up being able to read music after using this book, I believe it will help me immensely as far as music goes. if I could get to a point where I could just be presented sheet music in order to immediately reproduce it on guitar, that would be amazing. if this were true with guitar, keyboard and bass... the possibilities would be endless!
I watched avatar again tonight. I still think it's really cool with a crappy b movie plot and the best CG ever. I like video games that look like movies, so why not a movie that looks like a video game?
well, that's about enough of that. removing digits from blig.

too old too cold

today sucks.
I woke up today and ate breakfast as usual, then spilled coffee all over my desk, myself, my floor and my 4 track recorder. I've felt like I've been in hell so long I'm beginning to believe it. no matter what I do I always fuck it up. nothing works for me. endless google video searches bring up nothing watchable. today andy's pipe brings no comfort. I can't even express my northern darkness in my chosen media.
when I'm done posting, I'll go back to laying on the futon, but now I'll be listening to mental home, one of the darkest bands to ever exist.
I hesitate to call them black metal because it doesn't seem to fit quite right for some undefinable reason.

online job search

you see the title. if you have even tried to perform this action, you know how stupid it is. for those who don't, prepare to get lost in a digital maze of megalithic stupidity. one site will post a job from another site and when you try to follow the trail, you find that all of the "apply now" buttons do nothing but send you on a tangent. I would definitely not reccomend doing this first thing in the morning as it WILL wreck your day.
after that online job search, walking through town where I know there aren't any openings and asking for applications that they grudgingly hand out seems like an awesome idea.

blogging for the sake of the blig

I've been awake since 1pm yesterday. my dad just got up like a little while ago and he's leaving by 9am. at that time, my mom should arrive home from her sleepover. she's going to tell me that I should have been there as a chapperone, but I won't do that because the kids that she supervises there are brainwashed little gremlins. she has groups of middle school and high school students that she runs. some of them are book groups and some are anime groups. none of them put a damned scrap of effort into anything they do in these groups and my mom says "that's ok, I'll lock myself in the library with them all night.". something doesn't add up here.
anyhow, my dad is going to some kind of a swap meet flea market type of deal today with one of his few remaining friends. I am hoping that he will spend a long time there and focus on not being here.
his job gets him out of the house less these days too. he used to work a regular 9-5 job at the university of rochester until he got pissed at his boss and decided that wasn't a cool place to work anymore. now he does some type of work that involves preventative maintenance of heating and cooling systems in schools. he is involved in making computer based walkthroughs of all the equipment. he doesn't go out and collect the information himself and he doesn't program the computer, so that brings up the question, what does he do? he may be the one who convinces the schools to use the system, but it turns out that all of the schools are required to use A system this year. he goes to something called "kick off meetings" when they begin to work at a new school. considering his arrogance and lack of any meaningful function, my best guess is that he tells everyone how awesome thinks he is for no good reason.
I am currently unemployed. I spend most of my time hanging out with my rat, playing guitar and watching videos on the internet. the problem is that I end up doing most of this at night when my parents are sleeping. hence, why I am up at such an hour of the morning. I am trying to get my schedule back into what most people would call a normal time frame. I get the feeling that there are not many jobs in this area and with a resume as bad as mine, most of the few that there are wouldn't want to hire me anyway.
so, that's way more info about my crazy family than anyone would ever want to know. I hope you enjoyed the picture of my mom, who until this point has been spoken of, but never had a picture here.

dario argento's twos

after viewing the films suspiria and inferno (both by dario argento), I have concluded that I don't like his work. it's always some type of murder mystery and the sound comes in toos: too loud or too quiet. that must be one of the secrets that future film makers learn in movie school. make the soundtrack of your film in an effort to blow speakers manowar style and make all of the characters whisper their dialogue so it can barely be heard. does this seem like a bad idea to anyone else? I'll never know because nobody reads my blog and nobody comments on it.

super heros and super villains

my dad is getting more intolerable by the day. my mom even comments on how difficult it is to listen to him. I've dubbed his super-villain persona as "captain hubris". i try to talk as little as possible because with him thinking he's the only person who's always right, it's best to not fuel his arrogance with any words that he might have an opinion on.
the other picture is rick, or as logan dubbed him, "el grasso" he's clearly a super hero (unless you happen to be a lawn) as he is involved in grass 24 hours a day. if he's not cutting it, he's growing it or smoking it.

difference between good and bad

I have heard of 2 movies coming out on the same topic: the original black metal scene. one will be good and the other will be bad.
until the light takes us will be good. it is a documentary film on the subject including interviews with the real people.
lords of chaos will be bad. it's supposed to be a dook-ass hollywood flick with teen heart-throbs playing the part of grim and frostbitten musicians. I'd like to prepare them for their roles. this would consist of forcing them to do the things that the originals did. whoever plays pelle would have to sleep on a bed full of dead animals when he's not burying himself for a few days at a time and the actor chosen to portray varg would have to actually murder someone and burn down some churches. others might have to run an unsuccessful record store or try to make it in a music business that doesn't want them. teaching themselves to play black metal would be mandatory for all involved.
fuck hollywood.